lonesomE time

Last month my mum and sister accompanied me almost all the time. When they’re not, Nana would’ve bugged me. Mr. Pua would’ve called and make use of his salesperson’s tone to make fun of me. For one full month, I was never truly alone.

I got back to Shah Alam with Eunice two days ago, and I intended my little sister to have fun on her short stay here. I drove her around here and there. I hope she’d be happy with her stay with me.
The truth is, I’d like her to release herself from the hook of stress.

While she’s around time moved at the speed of light, and I’m almost always talking and chatting away.
But when she left, suddenly time seems to crawl lazily. I’m left unoccupied.

Suddenly, there’s too much time until I drift away in my own sea of thoughts.
I distract myself with the Twilight Saga, and I tried to complete the CD I wanted to present to Nana on her birthday.

Now alone at Shah Alam, suddenly, collecting my results (I’d a precognition that it’ll turn out bad) on Saturday seems too long and too far away. Until Saturday, I don’t really have much to do.
In fact, I have NOTHING to do.

I hate being lonely like this.
And as much as I hate to admit this, I’m feeling emotional.
I hate this feeling equally as well.

i aM...

I am…

Her nightmares.
Her headaches.
Her sufferings.
Her troubles.
Her misery.
Her pain.

But for what I am,
She LOVES me.
She still loves me no matter what.

I’m sorry mummy.

I just couldn’t put my words correctly at times.
I never meant to hurt you.
Never meant to make you cry.
And it breaks my heart to see you cry.

I’m sorry mummy.
I love you.

awEsOme

Forced perspective is defined as ‘a technique that employs optical illusion to make an object appear farther, closer, larger or smaller than it actually is.’

I read about forced perspective photography and i Googled it, saw a lot of examples, and is feeling very eager to try this out soon.

Then i came across this picture, a great example from 1918 - Human Statue of Liberty - which really impressed me. I doubt any other photographer will be able to recreate a masterpiece this good.

Please click on the picture for larger and detailed view.

If you study the picture properly, you'll notice that the feet if the statue is only composed by a few men, while in the head and flames - NUMEROUS! The photographer make full use of his knowledge of perspective and beautifully executed this piece of artistic photograph.

The picture is composed of 18,000 men preparing for war in a training camp at Camp Dodge, in Iowa.

A few very interesting facts about the image:

• Length from base to Shoulder: 150 feet
• Right Arm: 340 feet
• Length of Torch and flame: 1000 feet
• Total Length: 1490 Feet
• Number of men in body and head of figure: 2,000
• Number of men in right arm: 1,200
• Number of men in torch: 2,800
• Number of men in the flame only: 12,000
• Total men: 18,000

I can't stop feeling amused by this photograph.

my pHonE leNgzai d

I finally 're-skinned' my phone for RM50. It was in a terrible physical state after the accident.

TaDaaaaa~

decisioN

Life is about making decisions.
But making decision is cruel and ridiculous.

You let opportunities slipped away –
Shit happens.
You live with it.

You made the wrong decisions –
Shit happens.
You live with it.

You lay dormant and decided not to decide –
Shit happens.
You live with it.

Life is cruel.
Life is all about making cruel decisions.
It is ridiculous because there’s no correct decision.
Shit happens all the time.
And you'd to live with it.