lonesomE time

Last month my mum and sister accompanied me almost all the time. When they’re not, Nana would’ve bugged me. Mr. Pua would’ve called and make use of his salesperson’s tone to make fun of me. For one full month, I was never truly alone.

I got back to Shah Alam with Eunice two days ago, and I intended my little sister to have fun on her short stay here. I drove her around here and there. I hope she’d be happy with her stay with me.
The truth is, I’d like her to release herself from the hook of stress.

While she’s around time moved at the speed of light, and I’m almost always talking and chatting away.
But when she left, suddenly time seems to crawl lazily. I’m left unoccupied.

Suddenly, there’s too much time until I drift away in my own sea of thoughts.
I distract myself with the Twilight Saga, and I tried to complete the CD I wanted to present to Nana on her birthday.

Now alone at Shah Alam, suddenly, collecting my results (I’d a precognition that it’ll turn out bad) on Saturday seems too long and too far away. Until Saturday, I don’t really have much to do.
In fact, I have NOTHING to do.

I hate being lonely like this.
And as much as I hate to admit this, I’m feeling emotional.
I hate this feeling equally as well.

sUrrOgatEs

Before I came back from Shah Alam, I had the opportunity to hang out and catch ‘Surrogates’ with Hui Lin. The funny thing about us is that we’d been SMS-ing a lot, but we’d never really talked much face to face. I really had a great time borak kosong with her. All our topics revolve around our assignments and movie critics.

After movie sempat go dinner some more. I was the one driving, but she’s the one bawa jalan. I wonder when only I’ll know my way around Klang Valley? I’m always doing the wrong turn here and there. Hilarious.

But what i wanted to share here is ‘Surrogates’.
This movie is set in a near future, where humans are actually interacting using humanoid machines that they control with much liberty on a control chair from their respective home. All aspect of life is done using these machines they call ‘Surrogates’.

I wonder why the Malaysia version of the poster is so damn ugly.
This version looks neat and nice.

The movie actually had a pretty nice, neat and easy to understand introduction. The technology used in Surrogates was invented in order to help those who are physically impaired. People who’d lost their limbs in accidents or any other means are given artificial machine limbs in which they can control at ease. Slowly, the technology expanded so much that full humanoid surrogates are created. It’s then commercialized and the government allows its use in daily social life. This action is said to be the first step to generate the crime-free society.

Bruce Willis stars in this futuristic science fiction as Tom Greer. He is a police detective that conducts his investigation using his own surrogate. It was until his machine was destroyed, he is forced to investigate the bizarre case of a few people who actually died, when their surrogates are ‘killed’.

I would recommend this movie. Not 5 star la. Maybe 3 star the best. The special effects are really cool, but the plot, it is somehow too predictable. Still, it’s an enjoyable movie.
You might like it. ;-)

faKe

Previously on geNeceLL:
I was made to delete this post because some one said it's offensive.
But wad the heck? Re-posting it anyway. Since many already read it elsewhere, why not here kan?

I cannot understand how the mechanisms of some people’s brain work sometimes. How can they be so extremely fake? I always said I hated backstabbers. I hate the jab from the back. But this is totally different from what I’ve seen so far. So totally different.

This individual can laugh. This individual can smile. This individual knows how to get angry, and she definitely knows how to condemn. If you’d wronged her, then get ready for her judgment. She’ll ignore, she’ll condemn you behind your back, and deny it in front you with almost genuine anger. She hates to be questioned, no matter how questionable her actions might be. This individual sees faults in others. But one thing I’m sure, she’d never seen any error in herself.

The nice thing about confronting her would be the almost always imperfect excuses she gave. What she said never made any sense to me.
“I did not say that before.”
“I forgot.”

I do not believe in her words. I do not believe in the warmth she gave to people around her. Having listened to her cruel words bout some other people around me is okay. But seeing her being so nice to these people she spat on when she’d problems made me sick. She can happily laugh and smile to these people she condemn not so long ago.

She’d treated me nice before. But the more I think about it makes me wonder if her warmth is genuine at all. All she need was company. All she need was someone to talk to, no matter who it is. No matter how much she actually hates you. All she need is to own the world. She needs to make the world bow to her command. She wants the world to know how she felt. But she never bothers to care what the world’s feeling. A self centered individual.

Is her warmth and care earlier genuine after all? No. It’s all fake.

I am positive that she’ll spit on these people again. The very same people she spat on earlier and talked to nicely after. Soon, as soon as she got pissed off for her own lame reason. But it won’t be a problem after all. People always give in to her when she comes back with excitement in her voice and smile on her face. I lost trust in her smile. In fact, her excitement and smiles now make me sick.

iT's a nEw day

Saturday morning. Everyone left for their early morning classes. I’m left sitting alone here in front of my laptop. I don’t like the feeling of being alone, but today might be a good chance to just sit down and relax a little.

Life had been spinning 360 since the last few weeks. There’re moments of confusion, surprise, fear, happiness, despair and bitterness. But it’s all over now, I want to start anew. I want to get back on track.

I’ll just keep this post short. Need to pack. Need to head back to Melaka!!


:-D

maLas

Boring nyer!!!!
Actually aku mashih ader banyak lagi kerja yang perlu dibuat. Tapi aku duduk lepak jer main Bejeweled kat Facebook. Giler la. Patut aku duduk jer kerjakan project yang ade kat tangan, tapi aku malas. Mood untuk buat assignment atau project tak exist.

Karang plak aku bleh lepak blogging. Macam tak kenal masa. Dah la deadline dah dekat sume. Tak kenal maut.

Ahhhh!!!
Lantak la. Mandi dulu.
Assignment ngan project… Tengok ah camne nanti.

haPpy bDay chiEy fOng!

The birthday girl is the one sitting in the middle, in yellow t-shirt. She called me a 'height discriminator', and it's only fair that I call her 'Pendek'. She'd just turned 22 years OLD yesterday, so I just wanna wish her Slamat Hari Jadi Pendek!

I hope all your birthday wishes comes true!

My woRk iS fiNaLLy doNe

My assignments, my presentations, my projects, all are submitted. All accomplished. Now that everything is finally done, I’m felt relieved!

While I was rushing against time to finish my works, AJ got ‘diu’ me a bit. She said I never gave any credits to those who help me in doing my tasks. I cannot credit them in my written assignments, so I credit them here in my blog k?

AJ helped me a lot in my written assignments. She did my PR report for me, and many other written assignments, while I am busy doing my designs. Can say every piece of my written assignment also she’s involved. Especially my forum’s presentation script, and my PR report. That two pieces of writing are purely her work. I’m just giving her the guidelines and taddaaaaa... The work is done! Besides that, I also had her criticize my artwork. She’d been very helpful. All my works she said not nice. So, everything has to be redesign again. Hahaha... But it’s good lah. I feel that there’re improvements to the designs. Thanks a lot!!

So, actually, there’re only 2 subjects that got me so busy for the past weeks. Digital 3D Design, and Digital Illustrations. Well, 3D is a headache for me. I’m relatively weak in modeling, and the process sucks. Our lecturer Mr. Shahruddin assigned us with only four 3D models to make, but still we cannot submit the work in time.

The 4 items he assigned us to complete are:

(i) Apple

(ii) Hammer

(iii) Hand

(iv) 3D character

And what I submitted is definitely not so similar with what he wants. Hahahaha... I gave him:

A cherry?

A definitely distorted hammer

Kayu papan-style-hand

And...I dunno what this is. You tell me?

As for Digital Illustration, I am assigned to design a concert ticket. And for final project, I have to redesign a children’s storybook.

The ticket is a total reboot after AJ said the original design sucks badly. But I can’t show you the original design because it sucks so bad, I didn’t even bother to complete it.

This is how it looks like after the reboot. It’s disappointing because the figures in front are not clear on print. Ah... I forgot to label the front and the back. The one with black surface is the front. The white one with loads of logos and the map is the back.

When I say I’m to redesign a children’s story book, I mean I’d to improve the design of the story book. I don’t really know what to do. So, I choose to extract the text as it is, and re-illustrate the whole thing. You really should read the children storybook. I never thought that I would read such a piece of rubbish. The illustration is really terrible, and the story itself is too damn dumb. Here’s a some sample of the book:

Ugly indescribable.

Well, SzeMun help me a lot. She helped me in sketching a cuter version of chickens. Like this one:

Cute? Ahaha... I attached the book I redesigned below. Enjoy the ‘storyline’. It might be the worse or best children storybook you’ll ever read. It depends!

Now, that my works are all done, the nightmare had just begun. My final exam is here. OMG, save me.

P/S: My exam is over. i tot i published this earlier, but I did not realize it was in my draft. Damn. =.=

i sMasHeD mY caR oN cHriStmAs eVe

What the fuck is wrong with my luck these days? I’m so fucking unlucky, and I feel like blowing my head off with an AK47 (if I had one).

This morning, I was driving outta the college area when I suddenly hit some 1 ft high concrete with my front bumper. The screeching sound is like so damn loud and I can actually feel my heart beating in my throat. I was so shocked. When I get off my car to check, all i can see is the whole front bumper already fell off. What a retard I am.

I drove to the nearest auto repair shop (which is not a body shop), and they say I’d to change the whole bumper. The bumper brackets are all broken. According to the mechanic, my bumper is already out of shape. There’s nothing much to be done except to change a whole new bumper. So I placed my order.

Then I thought that I should have called my dad, asked his opinion of what to do. He answered my phone call and briefly said:

"Don’t fix. Bring the bumper back to Melaka."

Eventually, I go back to the shop and cancelled my order. Haiz, and back to Melaka I did. I cruised my all my way back (more than 130km) with my front bumper in my car, instead of having it on the front. I have no choice since the NGV tank is occupying the rear storage.

Yea, that's my front bumper. wtf..

Took a picture of it when I reach Melaka. This scene really render me mood-less.

What a Christmas.. I guess this is my 'best' Christmas present this year. Merry Christmas to all you dudes out there.

Drive safely. Do not kill your car alright?

a pArKinG sLoT foR dEaD iNdiaN

Kak Ain was admitted into hospital yesterday. As a friend, I visited her at Klang (nonsense, takkan I visit her as doctor plak). It wasn’t easy to find that Klang Hospital. Tersesat. And after a series of unfortunate events, including doing a few U-turns in Klang Town, finally I arrived at the hospital. When I saw her, then only I know that she was admitted because her blood pressure was too low. But since she can smile and ask for diet coke, I guess she'll be fine soon. And of course, I hope and pray that she’ll get well soon!

Kak Ain as smilling as we change the content of the dripper with Diet Coke.

But in this entry, I would like to share what my friends and I saw at the hospital: a very special signboard indeed: a parking slot reserved for dead indians.

I wonder whether they reserved parking slots for dead chinese from government sector as well?

fLooD

Shah Alam is once again doomed by rainy season. It’s raining consistently at least once a day every noon-to-evening period, everyday. The downpour is seriously wild, and it could flood my college area just within minutes. When I first reach Shah Alam, my seniors told me that our college is frequently flooded and it’s a normal thing to happen. I’d been here for a while now, like a year or so, and yet this is the first time I witness the water rising.

Here are some pictures I took using Aj’s phone at my college area after the rain had stopped and the water level had decreased.

-_-||| Our bikes are flooded. AJ's bike is also parked around here, however it's not visible.

I dunno why, but everybody seems to be happy and smiles all the way,
even when they have to take off their shoe and walk barefooted on the tar road surface.

The temporary beach.

Things gets back to normal after one hour or so..

While I thought it’s stupid because a university cannot have good water drainage system, my friend Ain said,

“University banjir cuma kita saja yang ada!”

Well, i guess that’s the reason why everybody is smiling, even when an incident like this one occurs. They actually felt proud.

And then yesterday, the rain came pouring like hell again. And this time it’s accompanied by some strong wind that makes your day worse, if you are outdoor picnicking. I was lucky I was home when the downpour occur. There is no warning for rain of this sort. One minute the sun is trying to kill you; well next, you’re killed by the thousands of gallons of water crushing down from the cloud above your head which appears out of nowhere.

I took the oppurtnity to snap some picture again.

The visibility is very low when the downpour occur.

This small bird took a pit stop at my balcony to dry its feathers.

This is how the river look like after the rain had stopped.

This picture was just taken this morning before I start typing this piece of entry.
Can you see the difference?

I just hope it rain less. Don't want all this banjir kilat lah. Make people pekchek only. want go out have lunch or dinner also cannot. Here flood there flood. This is really so annoying.

nO hOliDay @ sHaH aLam

I’m still blogging. Just don’t feel like continuing the previous post, so I started a new post. But the truth is I don’t know what to tell! Well, as I’ve stated in the previous post, I work for the sake of my DSLR, so don’t ask me belanja at the end on the month.

Did I mentioned I had my own cubicle?

Besides, I’m totally broke, so don’t ask me belanja, really.

Working here in Shah Alam equals to a shouting “bye-bye” to Mr. Holiday. Work is tiring, but worth it I guess. If I’m not working, then I guess I’ll be chillin’ at home back at Melaka. Lepak with my friends, maybe hang out at mamak’s. Or maybe catch a movie or two with them. Or maybe to celebrate Father’s Day at that sucky restaurant which we’d always go for family days. But here I am, working my ass off for 65 bucks per day.

Shah Alam’s weather is kinda whack lately, rain and chill wind drill through my skin as I travel on my motor bike. Not to mentioned, I’m of course all well soaked. Maybe by the end of the month, you see some mushrooms on my skin due to the humid weather here.

And from what I heard from Eunice, Melaka’s sun is shining bright. That made me jealous!

No holiday is already bad. Bad weather makes it worse.

By the way, petrol price is gonna pop tomorrow. Better go pump full tank before 12. Queues as long as the Great Wall of China are already available at Shah Alam’s petrol station, causing major traffic jam. If you want to join them, I suggest you do it now. I don’t know about Melaka, but I guess it’ll be the same.

The long queue for the last few drops of cheaper petrol.

K la.. I'm gonna off now. This mamak spot is making me drowsy. See you guys. Goodbye dear blog!

caMeRa diLeMma

I’m typing this entry from mamak restaurant with wi-fi. I'm so tired after such a long day. Currently, I’m doing a part-time job. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for the DSLR I need next semester. DSLR prices kills! Even cheap normal performance ones cost at least 2k and above. My lecturer recommends D60-D70 for Nikon, and 450D for Canon. D60 cost around 2.4k, and others I’ve no idea. I like Canon’s 450D, but from what I read, the kit lens sucks. Now, I’ve no idea.

Left: Nikon's D60. Right: Canon's 450D

Well, from what i heard, 450D auto focus much faster, but D60 is much more user friendly, but with no auto focus. Well, most reviews on the net actually suggest getting a Nikon D80 instead of this entry level DSLR, but I'm well aware of the expensive lenses I'm gonna need if I'm to get one.

So, my option is again back to D60 and 450D. Damn.. This is what I get to summarize from the net..
D60
Pros:
i. Small, light and well-built.
ii. Very easy to use with helpful menus.
iii. Virtually fool-proof metering.
iv. Excellent DX 18-55mm VR kit lens option.

Cons:
i. No auto-focus with certain lenses.
ii. Some settings require too many button presses.
iii. Anti-dust system not infallible.


450D
Pros:
i. Good handling and image quality.
ii. Decent viewfinder and accurate Live View.
iii. Kit includes stabilized lens.
iv. PC remote control software supplied

Cons:
i. Live View not as fuss-free as Sony A350.
ii. Bad lousy lens kit


I need real advice here man... Any pro DSLR enthusiast willing to help me out?

seBeLuM fiNaL eXaM - paRt 1

Alright, study week has already begun for many bachelor programs in my college. But for me, I’d no study week, since my Moral Education lecturer is far too hardworking compared to other lecturers. But it’s really good to know that Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and also Wednesday are free from Moral Education.

It’d become a trend since I came here to MSU: find new ‘lepak’ spot when final exam is around the corner. During my previous semester I found Subang and Klang. This semester, I reached Damansara and KL. I can really say I had fun cruising from place to place on my Honda Wave. Oh seriously, I didn’t touch any academic reading materials yet so far. I wonder how bad I did in mid-semester. Until today, the results are not out yet. Anyway, this blog entry and the following ones are meant to tell you guys what I did just one week before exam! I must admit, I achieved a lot n such little time!

May 16, 2008:
Well, class is available like normal. That day, all of us are tension! Two quizzes in a single day! It’s actually pretty hard to study under such pressure. So, I did it freestyle. I think I wrote stuffs which are irrelevant. I did not make enough preparation and I guess both lecturers are going to flunk me in both quizzes.

After the quizzes, I and Aj went to Sunway, and bought 4 tickets for Narnia. Then we went for dinner at Wendy’s! God, the burgers are great! And when they say large, they do mean real LARGE. That makes Mc Donald’s large set their medium set, and Mc Donald’s medium set their small set. Their burgers looked special with uncut corners! And the taste is just as great as the size.

Want some?

Huge!

After dinner, we met up with Chanel and Fi. Soon, we’re already in the Cineplex snapping pictures. Hahaha.. And then one of the trailers caught my attention. The title of the movie is Hancock, starring Will Smith. From what I found on the internet, Hancock is a comedy superhero movie slated to be release on July 2nd, this year. After the trailer, I must it’s a must watch!

Well, Narnia is great. High King Peter looks good. Prince Caspian X looks good. King Edmund looks good. Queen Susan looks good. Queen Lucy looks good. But the story is just weird. The whole battle tolls up lives, but the truth is Aslan could’ve settled it with a single roar. You can watch the whole 2 hour movie by yourself, or I can summarize the whole story for you with a single line:

Aslan is watching as the Kings and Queens wander around Narnia making stupid decisions that get many Narnians killed in action and finally, stylishly roar their stupidity off before the credit rolls.

May 17, 2008:
Oh, we woke up early. Really! We all woke up before 10a.m. even though we reached late the night before. Actually we planned to go Bukit Cerakah, that’s why we so early woke up. If not, I think everyone sleep till 2 or 3 o’clock. Haha..

Once we reach the place, we lose our patience straight away. We rent our bikes and off we go!

Bergaya tak? Rented bikes.

All action.. Get bike all paddle off at full speed!
Left me alone at the back taking pictures.

All of us are as energetic as we could be when we reached that place. But it doesn’t last. The energy-boost that we experience lasted no more than 5 minutes.

Totally exhausted!

After a series of unfortunate events: people vomit, people headache, and people complaining that he needs his 100Plus; we finally make it to the bottom of Bukit Cerakah. Unexpectedly, the only person who finishes the lap without any problem is our little mummy Chanel. Kuat! Kitorang nampak macam orang nak mati tak mati mati, dia plak relax macam orang tengah shopping!

Next, we enjoy free bus ride. And it was really fun! After getting enough fresh air, we went to Rumah Empat Musim. Well, actually this Rumah Empat Musim is a special room in Bukit Cerakah where they artificially create the four seasons which we Malaysian cannot experience. This time of the year, it’s spring! So it’s flowery lah inside. We snap a lot pictures inside the season house. Even outside the Rumah Empat Musim also we snap a lot! Even in the bus also we snap a lot! Wahahaha... We really are a bunch of budak gila gambar!

Bus shot~

Chanel practicing pole.. Oppss, not pole. Tree dance!
This shot was taken 200m away from Rumah 4 Musim.

An elephant and a pig trying to hide behind the coconut tree.

Aj, mummy and snowman.

Mummy and Aj inside Rumah Empat Musim.

Aj and I! The flowers behind us are real, even though they do look like fake ones.

Spontaneously posing for my cam!

There’re too many pictures at Bukit Cerakah to upload here. So I guess I’ll fit the others into an album and link it here later.

That night, we went over to Fi’s place because our place no electricity. And that night was the first time I ever experience the taste of Kajang’s Satay! In my opinion, it’s not as tasty as I thought it would be. Bak kata pepatah Melayu, “Indah khabar dari rupa”. But I don't mean they taste bad. It just doesn’t taste as good and juicy as what people had told me.

Look at how many satays they make at a time!

After dinner, we went to Mines to play bowling! Chanel sure can bowl. She impressed me that day. We all approved her as the strongest among us. I guess her shopping habits do contributed to her athletic build and stamina. Wahaha..

Chanel's bowling style!

We travel a lot that day! From Shah Alam to Bukit Cerakah, to Wangsa Maju, Setapak, to Kajang, then to Mines! Phew.. I guess that’s all for part 1.Tired of typing and uploading already. Blog later.